Hello hello!!! Its been a while...
I don't want to go into the ins and outs as it's still very raw but we had another bereavement in the family and I took it quite hard. Having gone from not having lost anyone in my life before to suddenly loosing two people I loved and cared about very much in the space of 4 months left me feeling emotional, dazed and a little numb. I haven't really wanted to blog and haven't wanted to be present in social media. I have just wanted to wallow for a little bit of time in my sadness and grief on my own and to be fair I think it has done me a lot of good.
It has given me time to get my head somewhat straight and to just be with my family and not feel pressured to blog which has been amazing. Fellow bloggers, readers of my blog, friends and even PR people and companies have been so supportive, understanding and caring and I am so grateful for this as the pressure to blog at this time would have made me start to almost despise my blog and that is something I never want to do. If I am being totally honest, there were days where I started to worry about loosing readers and followers as I wasn't posting or tweeting etc but then I just came to the conclusion that why should I just blog for the sheer hell of blogging. I only want to write what I want to write about so why should I have to force myself to write?? I wanted some time away from My Mummy Spam and that is just what I got. Writing this now, I can feel that I have missed it and I am glad to be back writing again but forcing myself to blog was not going to help anyone!
But now...I am back. I have so much that I want to talk and blog about and I now feel ready to carry on sharing my life with Bubba and Hubby with the world (well...the lovely people out there who read my mummy spam!).
Thank you for bearing with me and I hope you are still out there reading. I have some very exciting posts that I have started on and I promise to start getting back onto my Facebook page, tweeting and joining some lovely linkies again. Basically, to get back to what My Mummy Spam was :)